Now I See

I used to think it was impossible,
That everything was wrong,
That my sorrow, I deserved,
But alas my imbecilic humanity,
Made me try to hold on,
Yet as I did all the while,
You slowly destroyed my smile,
You stole the blood from my heart,
And laughed as I fell apart,

Oh how it would help to know she wasn't worth it,
That maybe you were wrong,
But the longer I ponder the thought,
The truth comes along,
I realize her I envy,
With everything I have,
Which isn't much considering,
You choose my heart to stab,

Woe is me, woe is me!
For now I finally see,
Her beauty is like the sea,
For surely it will never fade,
No, not even at the grave,
But me?
Oh the pain I hide,
The written silence in my eyes,
I am a monster in the highest degree,
I am a worthless, ugly waste of time,
Ah, now I see,
Why you chose her and not me