Haunted

They don’t understand the pain you go through
They think they do, but they don’t even understand you
You say I’m always overreacting, and lying
But I’m not can’t you see the hurt in my eyes, I’m dying

I try to be a good girl
But my thoughts in my mind begin to swirl
I’m tired and meek
And you always call me weak

I just want to be good enough, pretty enough, happy enough
But I know I will never be enough
No one can love me, no one even likes me
I’m useless, a waste of space, but that’s how it will always be

I do lie, but only because I’m scared
Scared of you finding out the truth and pretending like you cared
I’m a horrible human being, like my father and sister you say?
I am don’t worry its ok

You say that my parents don’t hate me, but how can that be?
They like you and the dogs more then even me!
But don’t’ worry I’m used to feeling worthless, and unwanted
The memories of what could have been are what keep me haunted

My father beat me up and you came to save the day
But that only lasted for so long until things started to sway
I’m a whiny little brat, isn’t that what my mother told you?
That I hated her, but if you only knew

I feel like I can’t talk about things, because I sound annoying
But in my brain my thoughts are boiling
I have trust issues that’s all I can say
And that even thought I’m messed I really want you to stay