Remember.

I remember when.
I was so depressed.
I would get drugged up all day.
Sleep for hours on end.
I would laugh at everything just to seem high.
Even though I'd sobered up hours ago.
I remember crying in front of ally for the first time.
In her closet.
When I told her about my past.
I remember making out with her.
Just because we were single.
And I didn't love her.
So fuck it.
I remember the first time I fell in love.
Such a perfect feeling.
I loved Robert.
As much as any human could love someone else.
I remember the fights.
The break up.
I didn't move.
I didn't breathe.
I didn't talk.
I remember how Leo picked me up off my feet.
I loved him too.
I love him.
We're together now.
And it's great.
I remember how much it broke your heart, Robert.
I remember how high I got.
Just to seem okay, I didn't sober up for hours.
I just stayed on cloud nine.
I tried to act strong.
But I'm not.
I care too much about what everyone thinks.
I remember telling Leo I was over Robert.
I remember to forget him.
I remember that I couldn't.
I remember mine and Leo's first date.
Our first kiss.
I remember how Leo made me feel.
I remember how I know that I'm not the one for Leo.
But I want to be.
I remember how much it hurt to see you move on.
I realized you hadn't.
You were faking like me.
Now.
I'm in love with Leo.
My second love.
Not as sweet as the first.
I remember that.
I really do.