Will You Notice?

yell, cuss, abuse, put down
you would think i wouldnt care by now
somehow it stills hurts
wish it would disappear
vanish and leave me here
in peace for once but i live in hell
and it wont go away unless... well
i wonder if you will even notice when im gone
or will you think im still in my room alone
will you be the one to find me
lying on the floor in a puddle of blood or will you even see
will you care im gone or just continue on like i was never there
one day i will be free from the pain you have given me
theres a cut for everytime i ever cried
theres a cut for everytime you lied
ill cut and cut until i die