Why Oh Why

some days just seem so hard to hard...
its like a never
ending burning pain in the that empty hole where
my heart use to be, i sit there and wonder
will this pain ever end or go away?
its been over four months and still every day you come to my mind.
i sit here day by day dying more and more as
everybody else moves forward.
why cant i move forward instead of backwards?
i remember when i use to be happy.
now i feel nothing but pain.
it doesn't go away, why,
oh why must i feel this pain every day
why cant it just go away...
go away and never come back
like you. you said you loved me i said i loved you too,
only difference is i meant it,
you didn't.. you broke me, you ripped me apart, you shattered
me like mirror. now here i lie empty, forgotten, broken. so
i wonder will this ever end or
go away? I'm not sure if it will but here i am, another day,
another fake smile to try and move ahead and make things work
without you.