I'm so Scared.

I'm cold,
Freezing and shivering,
My bones rattling in my body,
I'm so cold,
My breaths come as pants,
The breath I was had,
Now gone into invisible deaths,
I'm shivering so hard,
My teeth chattering away,
I can't utter a word,
I suck in a breath,
I cough,
It hurts so much.
I'm cold.

I'm lonely,
I show despair,
I hold death,
In my bare hands.
My eyes,
So glassy,
I barely can see.
I'm so lonely.
Fragile,
My body is,
No nutrition,
No sleep,
All I need,
Is your love,
Oh!
But I am lonely.

I want to die!
I want to feel his hate,
I want to feel how much his rage,
Burns daggers through me,
I don't want his love!
I don't deserve it!
He gave it to me so freely,
And I accepted it.
Now he's pushing me away,
Shoving me,
Not wanting me any longer.
He has no love for me.
No,
Not any longer.
I want to die.

I have scars all over my body,
Yes.
I do.
But none of them mean anything to me,
Except the ones I made for him,
Those are the deepest,
The ones that bled the most,
Those are the bubbled scars,
The only ones I worry about.
Yes,
I have scars,
Yes,
There are stories,
But none of those,
Mean anything,
Except the ones I made for him.

My dad knows,
He sees the pain,
He sees the cuts,
He knows.
He says nothing,
Thinking it's just a phase.
My dad is my hero,
But no longer can he help.
My dad knows.

I'm in pain.
So much pain it causes fury,
Red hot rage,
That burns my body.
I hate this.
The part where I no longer know what to do.
This part right here,
Where I can see my death.
I'm in pain.

I'm so scared.
I'm terrified.
I no longer know,
Where I go.
My friends are there,
But how much can they help with.
I no longer want to live,
I fear,
That my end is soon.
You see,
The weekend is almost upon us,
I'll have no one,
To talk me out of it,
You see,
I've planned my death,
And now I how,
But,
I'm so scared.