You Don't Know Me

you don't know me!
you don't know my thought,
fears,or dreams

you don't know my name
or the process of my brain
you don't get me
like I get you

you don't know what i feel
the passion that runs through my heart
the effort to know as much
about you as I can

you don't know my souls deepest
desire,my wishes, or my dreams.

you don't know how i look
with out make-up on
and my forever fake smile plastered face

you don't know the countless
nights i lay awake!

you don't know the nightmares
that haunt my sleep
or the things that chase my day

you don't know what i've been called
you don't get my pain,
my tear soaked face,
the scream, the cry as i face the day

you don't know how wise
or strong i am
you think i'm pathetic,weak.
you don't deal with the crap
that i do.
you don't get hurt you don't get broken

you don't know how broken I am
I have fallen hard
many times
lay shattered on the floor
everyone stepping ove or on me
avoiding my shards
look at you,
not even broken in two
prefect, fit, without a slit.

you don't know,
yet no one really does
I hide in shadows
and in corners
I am nocturnal
i live everyday.
I live on the outside
but die on the in.

So, you don't know me,
I can hardly know myself
I try to run and hide from
every trouble, every fall
Hide in the summer to the
autumn so tall
never been embraced held,
hugged, or kissed
the way i so badly need to be

you don't know how may
times I have looked at you,
followed you, tried to show you
that i care.
you don't seem to get me
I've given suddel hints,
more like suddel shoves
I have wrote you messages,
to non you have judged
but still i feel worthless,
unnoticed by your eyes.
Why do you seem to do this?
Why do you play with my mind?