Ashes

Is this snow or are these ashes?
I can't tell with all the patches,
Blotching out my memory.

Is that smoke? Was there a fire?
I can't remember; Did something dire,
Happen while I was asleep?

Have I been gone for so long,
That I missed these days gone by?
Was I so consumed in darkness,
That I missed watching us die?

I can't remember any flashes,
Oh God, please don't say these ashes,
Are yours and mine.