This Is My Life

This is my life.
My life is complicated, tragic, and sometimes magic.
Through my eyes, the worst memories bring slow tears.
The best friends lead to great times and the mistakes lead to forgiveness.
I've thought of things you wouldn't dare think of.
My life has been misplaced, and held in the wrong hands before.
No I have never had a knife to my throat, but yes to my wrists.
You people think putting others down is fun, it's not and we suffer.
When I hear my name I turn around and hope that this time it will be something good.
But it never is.
I cry every night when I'm alone.
Thoughts of the words I couldn't make out, but knew they were for me.
Everyday I get closer to that rope, hanging from the ceiling.
Do I want to?
No.
But the torture, the agony and pain, is all too much.
You act like I'll never find out, when I'm sitting right there.
You don't know what I've gone through.
I've been places you will never be and I've seen things I shouldn't.
But this is my life, and I'll make it through.
So get a life so you can stop talking about mine.