To Die In Vain

I'm drowning in a sea of red
Listening to my psychotic up head
I want to stop I want to be free
But would that ever really be me?

I Hate my fucked up ‘privileged’ life
Yet I love my shiny cold hearted knife
If only my heart knew how to mend
then maybe this wouldn’t be my end.

Tears of blue are falling now
I want to take my final bow
My heart is bleeding in my chest
So give me up and let me rest!

My messed up head just won’t shut up
It tells me to drink this poisoned cup
You’d cry tears of salt and blood
If you could hear what my ears could.

I don’t want to live, or breath, or speak
Because life has already cut me too deep
So I lay here all alone in pain
And think of the words, “I'm Dying in Vain!”