Sadistic Love

Where did we go wrong?
We used to be so happy together.
But something changed in you.
You became a monster.
A soul-crushing, heart-breaking monster.
You hit me until I black out.
I wake up with bruises all over my body.
You apologize, saying you're sorry.
That you'll never lay a hand on me again.
But I know it's a lie.
You try so hard to make me believe you'll change.
Though nothing you do can change my mind.
That look on your face when you tie me up and rape me.
It will be burnt into my brain forever.
That devilish grin that crosses your face when I scream.
You climb up beside me and tell me you're sorry, when you're not.
I just plaster on a fake smile and pretend to accept your apology.
Hoping maybe one day you'll believe that I have forgiven you.
Maybe you'll finally trust me.
Maybe I'll be able to run and hide.
You fall asleep and I try to hide, but you always find me.
You tell me you love me more than anything, then slit my wrists.
You laugh as you watch me bleed.
I spit in your face.
That just angers you.
You grab me by my hair and slam my face into the floor, breaking my nose.
You punch me in the face, busting my lip.
You watch with satisfaction as I cry and scream for help.
I scream until my throat is raw.
I cry until there are no more tears.
Your smile fades as you realize you've finally defeated me.
But you won't quit until there's nothing left of me.
So you slit my throat, knowing I'll try to hang on as long as I can.
You squeeze in one last laugh as I take my last breath.
You've gotten all you can out of me.
You watch as my love lies bleeding.