Lyrical nonsense from a fan.
" do you want to hold my hand", a simple question with a thousand answers,
I don't want you to sign my photograph, never claimed to be your biggest
fan, "would you leave me lying here?", never in a million years, i don't care
what your here for, I'm just happy that you are. you can't find your way
home, but i found mine through you, you know what you'd do to get back in
her arms, i know what i'd give to be her. i'm no angel but i'm crying. I may
not sleep in a coffin, but my past brought me to you, you all get together
when you bury your friends, i bury mine alone in the darkness of my mind.
i'm drowning in the fear, heaven can't help me, and i don't want to be saved.
i always pray for you, you made a saint of yourself. i will lay for you, but
would you do the same. i'm covered in gasoline, waiting to strike the match
to incenerate, as the tears of blood fall. you shot lipgloss through your viens,
and pumped venom into the gaping hole that was my heart. i don't complain
with the falling rain, can't find some other way to carry on. but i won't stare
as i wash away the blood. you are the medication for my life. i'll let you in.
your words are poision and kerosene to wash down my life. i'll take your
hand, and never be afraid. take me back to the middle of the day that started
it all, and we'll fly home. you are my better reason. i'll run and hide with you,
just to hold you close and tight. forever, the promise i'll make, on my
starless eyes for heavens sake. i think i'll die alone, in my sterile life without
you. this is my way of showing just how much you mean. i'm trying to prove
myself to you. i mean this, forever. the heart you break, the blade i stain, the
bitter tears i've cried. you're beautiful and i'm a total wreck. your just five
men as god had made you. you sing the words, but don't know what it
means, to hear them. your pages may be torn and frayed, but only because
i've read you a thousand times. this is what i always want you for. get me
the hell out of here. i look everyday and hate what i see, now you know what
it's like to be me. i'm here waiting, babe, to get what i deserve. my life is a
joke, can you hear me cry out to you, as i dissapear, forever now, so i can't
hurt anymore. blow me a kiss before you go, cause i love the beat and the
lust it commands. so lather the blood on your hands, and you can take all
the pain away from me. in this world that sends me reeling, from my
decimated dreams, i can't get out, i can't get up. i will always love you just
like yesterday. say what you wanna say, because you are my angels, and i
haven't got a prayer. i will carry on, and cry out my eyes all along. i've been
disenchanted, and never learn a god damn thing. i can't make you stay, but
my heart is right here. i am afraid to keep on living, afraid to walk this world
alone. i see you lying next to me, with words i'll never speak. because i'm
the fan, and we'll never meet.
I don't want you to sign my photograph, never claimed to be your biggest
fan, "would you leave me lying here?", never in a million years, i don't care
what your here for, I'm just happy that you are. you can't find your way
home, but i found mine through you, you know what you'd do to get back in
her arms, i know what i'd give to be her. i'm no angel but i'm crying. I may
not sleep in a coffin, but my past brought me to you, you all get together
when you bury your friends, i bury mine alone in the darkness of my mind.
i'm drowning in the fear, heaven can't help me, and i don't want to be saved.
i always pray for you, you made a saint of yourself. i will lay for you, but
would you do the same. i'm covered in gasoline, waiting to strike the match
to incenerate, as the tears of blood fall. you shot lipgloss through your viens,
and pumped venom into the gaping hole that was my heart. i don't complain
with the falling rain, can't find some other way to carry on. but i won't stare
as i wash away the blood. you are the medication for my life. i'll let you in.
your words are poision and kerosene to wash down my life. i'll take your
hand, and never be afraid. take me back to the middle of the day that started
it all, and we'll fly home. you are my better reason. i'll run and hide with you,
just to hold you close and tight. forever, the promise i'll make, on my
starless eyes for heavens sake. i think i'll die alone, in my sterile life without
you. this is my way of showing just how much you mean. i'm trying to prove
myself to you. i mean this, forever. the heart you break, the blade i stain, the
bitter tears i've cried. you're beautiful and i'm a total wreck. your just five
men as god had made you. you sing the words, but don't know what it
means, to hear them. your pages may be torn and frayed, but only because
i've read you a thousand times. this is what i always want you for. get me
the hell out of here. i look everyday and hate what i see, now you know what
it's like to be me. i'm here waiting, babe, to get what i deserve. my life is a
joke, can you hear me cry out to you, as i dissapear, forever now, so i can't
hurt anymore. blow me a kiss before you go, cause i love the beat and the
lust it commands. so lather the blood on your hands, and you can take all
the pain away from me. in this world that sends me reeling, from my
decimated dreams, i can't get out, i can't get up. i will always love you just
like yesterday. say what you wanna say, because you are my angels, and i
haven't got a prayer. i will carry on, and cry out my eyes all along. i've been
disenchanted, and never learn a god damn thing. i can't make you stay, but
my heart is right here. i am afraid to keep on living, afraid to walk this world
alone. i see you lying next to me, with words i'll never speak. because i'm
the fan, and we'll never meet.