I'll Dig My Own Grave

You're cruel, you know that?
Insensitive and heartless
Uncaring and ruthless
With your words like knives
Enjoying every stab that digs deep into my skin
Enjoying the pool of tears and blood
That gathers at your feet
Satisfied with your accomplishment
You had me fooled, you know that?
Sympathetic and loving
Caring and endearing
With your words like bandages
That wrapped around my wounds
You took care of me
Crying when I cried
Smiling to bring the smile back to my face
I don't know who you are anymore, you know that?
You've become this monster before me
This killer who lingers on my biggest weaknesses
Who stabs at each wound until it bleeds dry
Draining me, breaking me, destroying me
So that when you move on, you leave nothing behind
Nothing to look back on
Nothing to remind you of the crime you committed
You've left me a shattered mess
So leave me be
I've bled all that I can bleed
Cried all that I can cry
Go and don't ever look back
I won't call your name
I won't call you back
Just the memory of you
The thought of you
The one that used to bring me out of the depths of darkness
Now drives me down into the deepest grave
One that I dug on my own
One that you kick me back into every time I climb out
Bury me
Or let me out
Whichever you choose
Leave me to do it on my own