I Have Learned

I have learned how to ruin a life, I have learned how to be ruined.
I have learned to ostracize, I have learned to minimize.
I have learned to run and hide, I have learned to roll the dice.
I have learned how to stare.

I have learned wishful thinking, I have learned that sinking feeling.
I have learned to dream big enough, I have learned to hate myself.
I have learned selfishness, I have learned arrogance.
I have learned not to trust, and how not to make it obvious.

I have learned I'll be hurt, I have learned I'll be alone.
I have learned he won't love me, I have learned an ecstasy.
I have learned I'm radical, I have learned to hate rational.
I have learned to hate to be.

I have learned about stillness.
I have learned superstitions, I have learned not to make wishes.
I have learned that fire burns, I have learned to be a friend.
I have learned they'll never listen.