Ashes (4/19/12)

All I have is all I need
All I need is all I have
Everything I thought backfired
Feels like everything I wanted has wounded me and left me to die
As I lay here tattered I cry
I did it all for the right reasons which turned out to be wrong
Alone and confused I stand strong
If you ever feel the way I do
I won't be there
I won't be there
Karmas a bitch
People say I'm better than this
I was but I'm not anymore

I should have pushed you away
A long time ago
If I knew back then what I know now
I would have let you go by choice
Not by force
You're immune to pain as I can see
You'll never be close you'll never understand me

By day I'm a man
And by night I'm a phoenix
When I lay my head down
I rise from my Ashes
I become a new me
And when I do forget about the old me
Because I've forgot about you

I use to think my heart beat for you
But now that it's broken
It beats to warn me
When you're near me
Because it fears thee
You've murdered my love for you
It wasn't mutual with tears in your eyes
I broke down I believed the lies