"Yours"

Do you realize
I put a collar around my neck?
It clearly says, "Yours";
It gets tighter everyday.
It's choking me.

Stupid girl,
Why do you worry so much?
He loves you.
I know,
but I'm too fucked in the head.

Delusions of mistakes you're making,
They haunt me at night,
Sending my paranoia in a downward spiral.
Please, Nighmares, go away,
Don't bother coming back another day.

Are you sure I'm not pushing you away?
That's all I ever want to ask.
But that's stupid.
Tedious.
Don't do that, it'll make it worse.

Darling,
I put a collar around my neck,
It clearly says, "Yours"
But, everyday it gets tighter.
Because I'm torturing myself.