Independance: All Along

I met this man

So full of life

He made me forget

My troubles and strife

He told me he loved me

Said I was beatiful

I have to wonder to this day

How I could've been such a fool

But for months ahead

I pretended it was alright

I knew what was happening

But turned a blind eye

The extended hours at work

Bad phone reception

But behind it all; one word

Deception

I finally couldn't take it

So I pulled him aside

"What am I to you?

Just along for the ride?"

He turned his head

Jaw set tight

Continuing silence

All through the night

I should've left

But I was scared

Of returning to a world

Where no one cared

I burried my worries

In a big numbing pool

Losing my mind

To alcohol

I came home

Around a'quarter to 5

Struggling to walk

Struggling to survive

I was met with a face

Full of guilt and concern

I scolded myself

Would I ever learn?

He looked me up and down

Eyes full of disgust

Like I was the one

Not worthy of trust

He then met my eyes

"You should probably leave"

My heart dropped to my feet

As I fought to breathe

I shook my head

Tears brimming

As what I feared came true

From the beginning

He shook my shoulders

"You mean nothing! Get out!

I was right there

He didn't have to shout

I made my way

Across the floor

Holding my head high

As I walked out the door

I thought to myself

With a hint of a smile

Why should I live

The rest of my life in denial?

This wasn't over

I still had a life to live

I don't need love

I don't have to forgive

I walked down the street

Nothing but clothes on my back

Grief and its army

Readying to attack

But I held my ground

Still and strong

Knowing I had it in me

All along