Hometown

Growing up with a family, in a town very small

Learning to live life to it’s fullest, even if I never had it all

It may not of been a place, where everyone wanted to be

But it was home, and it meant everything to me

After grandma left, it all went to hell

Any hopes of happiness, crumbled up and fell

Mom tried her hardest, to raise us well and good

But made mistakes, and therefore never could

I managed to keep smiling, only cause of one thing

3 very important people, that kept away the pain

Two that made me smile, no matter what went on

Friends that stayed up all night, talking until dawn

Then there was another, that I couldn’t live without

Always finding something, to talk and laugh about

Soon this small amount of bliss, ended one evening

When dad called and said, “I’ve had it, you’re packing up and leaving"

In the next week, I spent it with that one friend

The one that never left; was there right till the end

In front of the school, on my last afternoon

He came a little closer, and told me “Erica, I love you”

I shook my head, in embarrassment and fear

I was only 11, love shouldn’t be so near

I told him no, that I was moving away

“What!? Why?! Please won’t you stay?”

I turned my back, on an amazing friend

Eyes full of tears, as I saw my dad come round the bend

I got into his van, dreading my new life

Thinking it wasn’t worth it, I’d rather go through strife

But now it’s years later, and the tears still fall down

How I miss that boy, and that hellhole of a town

He’s found someone new, that said she loves him back

Something I could never say, a confidence I lack

I look back on those days, wondering how I could’ve been such a fool

Why couldn’t I have held his hand and told him“I love you too”
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