Acting

I don’t want to fight you
Even if you cause me so much pain
So I’ll stand here in front of you
I’ll smile and tell you simple words
That will always go like this
“I’m Okay.”
“No I’m not hurt.”
I lie with a smile
Hoping that the next day
Everything will change
I’ll pretend that my scars and cuts aren’t real at all
I’ll stand up and act
Like you didn’t push me to the ground
I’ll laugh when you say
I’m not pretty
I’ll act in this scene so perfectly
Make myself believe I have no flaws
Just so I can feel
As if you don’t hurt me
That I have no reason to cry or feel pain
I live with my head up in the clouds
Because I’m safe from you
When I’m up high