Words and Glass

They say pain is weakness leaving the body
But by now I should be strong
With everything that has happened to me
With everything I've done wrong

Hurting myself
Blades, pills, lead
Using anything to get
The bad memories out of my head

Words stung and so did glass
Scarlet poured all over the floor
I tried to suppress my cries
But they brought you to the bathroom door

It was locked so you couldn't get in
I slipped cutting myself deep
You busted down the door
And saw me stained like a newborn sheep.

I'm not the girl you thought you knew
Nor the girl you loved
But when push and pull are there
All my life I was shoved

I lay in your arms
Slowly dying
You called for help
And you were crying

Stay with me
You said when you could get it out
Stay with me
When you could shout

My eyes started to close
When the sirens neared
I never wanted this to happen
You finding out is what I feared

Bright white lights
Hurting my eyes
I guess this is a sign
No more goodbyes

I'm dead
This is it
I whisper
The dust I bit

I look around to see
If heaven or hell I was in
But no, a hospital room
Filled with several women and men

You were right beside me
Holding my hand and crying
The doctor says
"Too much blood loss, she is still dying"

He sees me awake
Then sedates me
Maybe my dying
Is what was meant to be

Three hours pass
Then I wake
You are still crying
And your hands shake

"I love you"
I mumble for you to hear
"Why did you do this
Tell me my dear"

The questions you asked
You held me till I was done
You promise never to hurt me and say
"I love you hun"

Today was almost my last
Because of words said by an ass
Those words cut deep
And so did that glass