A Memory Am I

Addiction to self-causing depression
Always causes a life regression
Hating myself for pushing you away
At the end of each day
Near to let you near
Im truly sorry my dear
Wall grow tall
To never let others see what I saw
Love has become a lie to me
Only something that you read
For what was between you and I
As I let it go I let out a settle cry
Undeserving of you I am
Only wanting to return to the dust f the land
Without your hand
That I pushed away
Further and further everyday
It hurts to look into your eyes
As ive lied
Sinful nature of man
Life of the damn
Live happy as you should with my absence
Looking from a far
As you get into his car
The life you deserve