Confusion of the Heart

My emotions are astray
Tell me how I can know
Why my feelings are in disarray
And what it takes for me to show
How I really feel
I know he is pulled to me, and I to him
My pounding heart leaves on my chest a wheal
Eliciting an emotion that is far from grim
Abound is my confusion
Is what I feel merely friendship or more?
I wish to cast away the illusion
For at my heart it has tore
Perhaps with the allowance of time
I will be able to see him as mine