The Day After Effect

I feel as though my legs are wrong.
Not in the sense that they're not my legs
but that they're on the wrong sides
and when I stand
it's as though my knees are giving out
or going in the wrong direction
or that the bottoms of my feet
are swollen and I'm very unstable
Not that I am going to fall
but the world around me is going to collapse

I have that feeling that some people get
just before sleep--
like falling--
except it's perpetual
instead of jolting me awake

My chest feels as tough
it's hallow
missing something
and then I start to cry and it's clear
to me what's gone--
chasming my thoughts--
you

The day after you leave
is forever the most difficult experience.