Listen. I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry
For all the pain I've caused
That I will cause
Because I'm so screwed right now

I need help, so much help
I want to escape, please let me escape!
I want, I NEED to bleed out
Anywhere, anytime of the day, I'm so willing

I'm on my knees! I'm begging you! Give me release!
I want to get so high, lift off from all my problems on the ground
Or drown in a bottle, away from all my suffering on the surface
Please understand, I'm not me anymore

And yes, I love her
And yes, you love him
And no, I don't care
And then I do again

I've broken the hipocrite scale
But I can't help it
Because no one is listening to me
No one cares enough, because everyone thinks I'll get through this

But I won't!
I really really won't
Not until I'm dead, at least
Not until all the blood has drained, and a corpse is left behind

I'm using harm as an escape
I'm using popularity as an escape
I'm using love as an escape
And I'm using anger as one as well

Please forgive me as I continue to put you all through this.

Because I can't stop.