Deeper Below

Somber destinies tremble beneath your feet
You see it's the guilty pleasures that kill us all
You think you're getting better, but you see that's the thing
You feel better for a while, but then, just before you fall

Deeper, deeper, drowning in the hurt
You swear to yourself, you swear you won't burst,
"The drugs! The drugs! They're killing me inside!"
"This guilt! This guilt! This guilt won't subside!"
But you're too afraid to accept those thoughts. . .
They're the only thing you haven't yet lost.

You hide behind the makeup, the fake friends, the sexy clothes
Because let's face it, you see no value in yourself with your legs closed
"Oh I wish I had control in my feelings"
But I have known all along you're naive
I know you're so school smart
But your grades don't mean a thing.

It's consuming you, the false comfort
The false love story, the false friends
They have all used you till there was nothing left
And so in return you use new ones to no end.

It's sad because I have been one of them
So have many other people I know
We all think it's bullshit, girl!
It's all truly degrading, the drugs,
they drag you deeper below.

And hey I'm not just an outsider
Pointing fingers at something I don't understand
Believe me when I say I've been there
Pot was the greatest thing known to man
Back when I smoked till I couldn't feel my face
I would smoke my self numb all day long
It's so I wouldn't feel the pain.

I wish that I could help you
I wish it every day with all my heart
My heart sinks every time I see your distant eyes
Your discolored cheeks
Your insecure walk
The acid, crack, ecstasy. . . the drugs . . .
The vodka, tequila, wine. . . the alcohol . . .
God they drag us deeper below.