The Sad Poem I Don't Remember Writing

Let me out
I'm smoking the leftover cigarettes
I'm singing the leftover lyrics
I'm housing the leftover company
I'm loosing whats left of my sanity

Unable to think
I lose all hope
I feel a hand on my shoulder
And don't perk up

They repeat my name
and finally i reply
with the shake of a head
and a silent sigh

I'm loosing all dedication
and my heart is beating quiet as a fly
i'm lost in myself
and i'm lost in regret

Where did this go
happiness and calming songs
i'm so bad im drowning in sorrow

places i will go
and people i will throw
im sorry to tell you
but this time im through

red blood out
and cold blood in
this girl once so sweet
has been terrorized with fear
shes shaking on the inside
but on the outside she stays cool
cold as ice
and sharp as the razors swipe

believe me
leave her be
this girl
this girl is something you should not see
her heart is so empty
her soul is so black
her eyes are so hollow
and there's scratches down her back

this girl she needs someone
but no one will do the job
they lie and they sing
about being the hero
but in all reality
they'll just leave her in the shadows

her body is tempting, maybe so
but on the inside she's without a soul
she'll rip yours right out
to replace this deep dark whole
even though she knows it wont work
she does it any so