Fall Out of Love

I try to avert my eyes
and tell myself you were never mine
You lean back and I can feel your heart
You have mine, breaking it apart
I've loved you longer, 12 months in a row,
But you now like another, 3 weeks of gold.
I hold back on my tears, try not to cry
you've known my worst of fears
now you leave me without a good-bye.
You said you never cared,
and it was almost too much I could bear.
Your smile, your eyes, your frown lines,
I know it's all just falsified lies.
You've liked me at some point in time
Whether you want to admit it or not is fine,
I wish I knew the truth, and I wish I knew
Why I was so easy to boot.
You've become my everything,
my happiness is yours,
You came to me when I was fallen,
and now I have to fall all over again.
I tell my self to not call you anymore,
to drop your smiles, to forget you now.
You said you didn't even care as friends
and yet in a flash I could see how much I meant.
You were bent on not saying sorry
I was the one and now I'm pretty spent.
I feel like a fool when I see her with you,
because I'm trying to fall out of love,
when I'm still desperately in love with you.