Tired

I see what i shouldn't
Clear lies but she couldn't
Hopes like a child
Cause he thinks that she wouldn't
My mind going wild
Stress from extreme to mild
I cant see whats right
Heart becomes tight
Surviving with all my might
My time is a gift
Borrowed Id say delayed
Filled with much sorrow
Guess its an even trade
My dimensions falling apart
Yet life is a work of art
Not sure on my design
Just hope it ends up fine
But the way that things are going
I guess its up to time
You see me smile hard
But inside i'm severely scarred
Too much pain to even guard
My heart just feels so charred