Sadistic

You hurt me and I get mean,
sadistic and masochistic to make it all better.
Let the anger out,
you can feel it flowing through your veins
like a reminder of your inadequacy.

I hate you, you see?
Stop making me feel differently.
This is so easy when I feel nothing,
so funny to act out your whole day to convince you of my affections.
Do you believe me?
I play my part well,
better than I did with the others.
I'll play this one out till its over, no tears for the boy
and none for the man anymore.

But deep down you know its not true.
You kiss me and I hit you,
hurt pride and bleeding emotions.
Your friends know too,
stop telling them our business.
When this all ends everyone will know,
they see it now anyways.
Shake your head and look away,
its about to all break down.

Don't break down tonight.
Wall up inside yourself,
feel nothing but yourself
and just be you.
Silence is the beast,
filling in the holes and eroding away at them.
They grow in your loneliness,
don't let the silence seep in.