Absolute Fear

All the hate I have suppressed,
Over the years,
Is now all I see,
When I look in the mirror.

The hours of beatings,
The cries of my sisters,
Every fear under that roof,
Was because of you, Mister.

The sins that were committed,
Within that house,
All the secrets created,
Not to be seen by even a mouse.

Convinced my only brother,
To sign his life away,
Now thousands of miles apart,
He fights for his survival every day.

Deathly threats,
Spat at my mother,
To make certain,
She would tell no other.

With your excessive drinking,
Things only became worse,
I wondered each & every night,
Why it was this family that was cursed.

14 years pass,
No longer silenced by your fists,
Divorce papers filed,
Absolute bliss.

Wish I could say it ended there,
And that I no longer fear your wrath,
But no matter where I spread my wings,
I always see that familiar back.