When I Look At Him

I look at him
and the guilt surges through me
I look at him
and I see what I did
I look at him and I remember
I remember the love
the joy of being in his arms
but he wont even look at me
I see the hatred in his eyes
when he notices me in the halls
but its not just hatred in those eyes
there's also pain
pain that I caused
pain that I put there
I wish that I never had cause to put it there
I wish that we had never been