Time

Now
Now is the time
That I prepare to enter the depths of hell
Will I burn?
Will I stink?
Questions roam through my mind
Over and over
Will I be remembered?
For who I am
Or for who I am not
Will I die before my time?
Will I be grateful of my death?
I think of death
No, I am not obsessed
I just believe in peace
Dying in a warm bath
Wrists bleeding
The tub surrounds me
I'm almost drowning in sudden shock
I don't want to relive this moment
I just want it to end
Fast
Not slow
But right now
I don't know.