I'll Never Be Alright

I grip my pillow tight
I block all my sights
I want to be alright
But I'm not alright
I'll never be

The pain I can't suppress
It's deep inside my chest
I tried to do my best
But it wasn't my best
It will never be

I feel so useless thinking
My heart is slowly sinking
I wish that I was keeping
My head on straight
But its sideways

I slowly got that feeling
The one I try not feeling
I scream towards the ceiling
I've come to far
To go back now

But that blades calling to me
My hands are gripping my arm
My blood wants to be set free
I want to feel its sickly warmth
I cry so much knowing my fate
I can't do this again I know it's not right
But it is sadly to late
My hands already holding a bloody knife

I'm not alright
And I'll never be