My Emotional Abyss

Why do you stare at me?
With such contemptible eyes?
With such a smile filled with malice?
To die for my sin..
What an accomplishment that would be.
As I pour my soul out to you
and in turn i get nothing.
I continuously ask for an escape.
From those sweaty palms.
From that scary smile.
That smile that draws me in.
Makes me think I'm everything to you.
But then looks at me with contempt.
Like I'm below anything.
Don't look at me!
I beg with a sweet sorrow only I know.
Only to be greeted with hurt and desperation.
A sadness that can cut the thick air around me.
Why do I feel this sadness?
Who needs these emotions?
The ones that scare us into thinking we're not good enough?
That's what I ask every time I fall into the darkness
Worrying about the simplicity of life.
I cry out into the darkness.
Save me!
But why should you?
For I'm the one who asked to fall into the emotional abyss...