Regrettfully, I love you.

I was sleeping late at night
when I woke up with a fright
I felt like I was being stabbed in the heart
My whole world began to fall apart
I shouldn't have lost you at such a young age
I can't control myself, or my own rage
I hated it when you almost died
Do you realize how many times I cried?
Sitting up afraid to sleep
Nothing worked, not even counting sheep.
I wouldn't dream without you here
And all my thoughts were becoming clear
You never call to say you're okay
And it's scary to know you'll die one day
Now that you're gone, how could I know
If you're proud of how much i grow?
I cannot dream a pleasant dream
and my heart is bursting at its seams.
All the voices of the ones I loved
Are flowing down from up above
All the secrets we shared, I swear I won't make a peep
And my memories of you, I will always keep.