Where I've Been

I’ve been at the bottom where depression is king,
I’ve been this close to ending everything,
I’ve been on the edge of a razor with nothing left to lose
I’ve been weeping in my lonely bed paying my dues.

I’ve been awake from nightmares that won’t end.
I’ve been in so much pain, but there has been no gain
I’ve been miserable in tears most of my days
I’ve been haunted by my past that always stays.

I’ve been so lost, not knowing my way
I’ve been so torn between the past and today
I’ve been lonely eating lunches alone
I’ve been lonely having no one to talk to on the phone.

I’ve been desperate wanting to be normal to fit in,
I’ve been looking for answers and where to begin,
I’ve been everywhere rotten and awful it seems,
I’ve been good places, but only in my dreams.