Lifetime

Why does everyone keep running away?
Why doesn't anyone listen to what I got to say?
No! Please stay! Please stay!

Ever since I was young 
All I ever wanted was the sun
The warmth, the heat
The feeling of sand on my feet 
That's not much to ask for
But now I'm putting it out
No more flame cause I got a bunch of cumulous clouds
Now
It's been a life time
Afraid of what's been left behind
Then
Want to escape 
Never again
It's been forever
When the flame went out I was as young as nine
I didn't know that all I needed was time
I didn't know that my future would glow bright
And now I need evidence to fight my bloody past
Need to know that to get my sanity back
Now I know that wherever I go it will always be the same
And I can't help thinking I was to blame
Now 
It's been a life time
Afraid of what's been left behind
Then
Want to escape 
Never again
It's been forever
I've seen power, I've seen blood
That flower I planted never survived the flood
The giant flood of memories
The overload, the one thing ever that's brought me home
I'm scared now even though I mustn't admit
Been too nervous to stand, too paranoid to sit 
That's got people thinking I'm like a game of Russian Roulette
Always standing out and directing people to their end
Amen