Failure.

Take a picture,
everyone already fucking knows.
Take the pill,
everything is gone.

Numbing every thought,
are you fucking blind?!
I'm begging for attention,
can't you see the blood running.

I failed,
failed everyone I told to say strong.
I was trying so damn hard,
told them I wasn't going back.
It was to dark for me,
But I went back.

All the things fading in and out,
my life flashing.
I'm so fucking sorry,
The streets were calling.

My past is back,
I tried so hard to dissolve the want.
Everything I feared is back,
taunting me.

I lied,
Fucking pathetic.
I told you to stay strong,
Fucking ignorant.

Said I wasn't going back,
The little razor was so fucking persuasive.
Said I was stronger,
The little pills told me different.

Now my eyes are getting heavy,
My body is going limp.
Now the love of my life is telling me how pathetic I am,
My mind is gone.

I don't give a fuck,
It's all his fault my mind screams.
Take me away,
I want to be punished.

How could i do this?!
I'm fucking pathetic.
Telling everyone I'm fine,
When I'm braking apart.
Everything disappearing,
Agony taking over.
I'm a failure.
Pathetic.
Ignorant.
Naive.
Little boy.