Confused

I feel like I'm losing sight of myself, but at the same time, I feel like I'm finding the real me.

How can I be so unsure of who I really am? I've always has an overall view of myself, but all of a sudden, it's like I don't know who that is anymore.

At times I really hate the new me. I'm like some sort of hateful fuck that doesn't know what she's doing.

But at other times it's like I'm really, fully me. The girl who knows what she wants. The one who's really free.

But why do I feel like everything's changed? Friends have gone. People have changed. I have changed.

I just don't get it? Why do I feel so alone when I know I'm not? Why do I feel like I don't know what's happening around me when I am fully aware?

Some things just aren't making sense to me. Things aren't adding up.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just at a weird stage of my life.

I just feel like I'm living someone else's life sometimes. Like it's not really me inside, but someone else.

I don't know.
Maybe I'm crazy.

I guess I'll never know.