Break Up

I offered you my heart, body, mind, and soul,
You lead me along,
I feel so fucking stupid,
I feel so fucking useless,

I know what true pain is,
I felt it all,
What you did to me,
Was one of the worst blows,

I will feel this pain for days,
No weeks to come,
And I will grieve over the lose of you,
But you will sit idly by enjoying your victory of having your way,

I felt affection,
A strong fucking affection,
That led me to believe this was real,
It was never real,

It was a one sided lust,
One of great passion,
Versus one of a simple game,
I never intended this,

I tried my best,
Gave it all I got,
Tried to make it work,
Became the best I possibly can,

...why would you do this to me?
We were friends so long,
We exchanged heated glances,
And smirked and turned red with adoration,

I fell so hard for you,
And I hit the ground,
Like I dropped from the tallest building,
Onto the hardest floor,

I'm sorry I never met your standards,
I guess I knew you were better then me,
I'll just sit here and wallow in self-pity,
Thinking, wondering, lusting,
What we could have, should have had,