Maybe

Maybe.
Maybe I was mean.
Maybe I hated everyone.
Maybe I was a bully.
Maybe I wanted attention.

Maybe.
Maybe I was a lier.
Maybe I was fake.
Maybe I wasn't me.
Maybe I wanted to fit in.

You all hate me.
I'm no longer normal.
I was shoved away,
And now I barely have anyone.

Maybe.
Maybe I messed up.
Maybe I said something wrong.
Maybe I started to be me.
Maybe I realized who I was becoming.

Maybe.
Maybe I wanted to be me.
Maybe I wanted to be free.
I wanted independence.
I wanted to be different.

Look at me now.
I'm a mess.
I screwed up.
I'm still not me.
I don't feel like myself.
I feel like a monster.

Maybe.
Maybe I'll find myself.
Maybe I'll like who I am.
Maybe it won't be hard to live free.
Maybe I'll be normal.

Maybe I'll want to live.
Maybe I'll have the feeling
Of not wanting to end it all.