Fake Friends..

I used to be so strong and stable,
I used to be able,
to brush things off and not break down
when someone puts me down,
calls me down,
pushes me to the ground.
Now it feels like the weight of the world
is resting on my shoulders,
and its crushing me,
that must make me,
weak.
And you used to tell me I was unique.
Right now, I couldn't feel more different,
more out of place.
Right now I couldn't feel more alone,
and it feels like everyone is just constantly
backstabbing me and I'm having my kindness
thrown back in my face.
I am so angry with myself,
for allowing myself to get this low again.
Sink this low again,
and let it show again.
I'm mad at myself for cutting myself,
and going back to the old me.
They said I've changed,
but I am just happy now.
Sorry for being happy,
but you made me depressed again,
take a bow.
I guess this life just wasn't meant for someone like me..
I will never get anywhere to where I wanna go,
So let me go.
Like the wind,
free.
I really wanted to believe,
that there were kind people out there,
but you made me give up hope.
You were never my real friends,
thanks for letting me know,
the cruelest way possible.
Now it feels like I am just lost,
and I am breaking down,
and my heart is shattering like a falling icicle...