Should Have Kissed You

I should have kissed you.
That could've changed the outcome.
It was a cursed day,
And we started it in the worst of ways.
What kind of couple breaks up at 7:30 a.m?
What kind of couple breaks up through a friend?
And just the night before, I was...
... It doesn't matter anymore.

I should have kissed you.
It would've changed things!
Equivalent exchange works out here
My first kiss for yours.
I called out to you,
But you hid your face.
Cried lakes into your hands
Explain yourself. Look at me. Something!
Please.

I should have kissed you.
Something on the inside told me to,
But your face remained hidden.
I want to believe
You cried because you were conflicted.
I never asked because I was so distraught.
How could it end so suddenly?
So early?

I should have kissed you,
But I closed my mouth.
Accepted this fate.
For a week, I kept silent.
For a week, I stayed distant.
For a week, I cut off the world.
For a week, I screamed through closed lips.
I couldn't stay away.
I need you.

I should have kissed you
When you asked if I hated you.
Is that even possible?
Me hate you?
Let's just work towards friends again.
I don't want to lose you.
I should have kissed you.