Relapse

She's proud of herself but she won't tell you why
It's been almost a week since she's last even tried
But the voices don't stop and today they won
Will she go for a razor or end it all with a gun

After hours of crying and arguing with herself
She gives in and opens the hidden box on her shelf
Overwhelmed with emotions, she selects her blade
Oddly delighted with the choice that she's made

So once again she takes a razor to her vein
And without even flinching or feeling any pain
Well, there is pain of coarse but it's mistaken for praise
She lacks in judgement because the feeling of daze

She sits there emotionless, blood pouring from her wrist
Giving into the feeling she's so long resist
A smile crosses her face as it spills down her arm
She's caught in the evil we know as self harm