The Unknown

I've never felt so insecure 
Uncoiling nightmares 
Engulfing me in unknown fears
Insomnia takes over
Tormenting my wondering mind
Fixing me in a tight bind
Thoughts of the past
What could have been said and done
Then my mind wonders further
To what was said and done instead
Your spiteful words ring loud and clear
Love is gone and anger replaced
You tell me how she is better
That she's worth losing me
Feeling used and misunderstood 
Your hatred shakes me to the core
But I hold my head up high
I let the words fly by
Right past me in an effort to be strong
And carry on
Loving the person I adore
And only in secret do I crumble and fall