Terminal

They break the news to me
Tears flood my eyes
I hold them back the best I can
There have been so many times I wanted to die
But now that I finally might its frightening
So many months in recovery
Potentially many more
Maybe it's the easy way out
But it's still unnerving
I want it all to be over
I want my old life back
No more doctors
No more surgeries
No more hospitals
I just want peace
Quiet painless peace
25 and dying
That's all I've got
No fascinating tales
Of travel or adventure
One lost love
But that's not enough
My story is alcohol abuse
And the dire consequences