Hurt Lost Confused I Wish I Knew You

Unable to capture you as you lure me closer and closer
Just to snatch my heart whille I’m at my weakest and walk away
To leave me struggling at the end of the day
Fluster and angry and confusion as all emotions pour out
Evening nothing but self-doubt
Am I not good enough for you?
Will I not make due
To your ideals of later life attractions
Or just by my mere self-actions
These questions lead to sleepless nights
Along with thoughts of might’s
Helpless and lack of control
Are what make me roll at night
Thinking thinking thinking with no solution
As the pollution
Of un-pure emotions sink in
Black tar seeping in my heart
Unknowing if we shall part
F
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As you cause my frown
As I wish I was below the ground
To not feel such emotion
Because you don’t understand such notions
I loved you
Now I don’t even know who
I am
Or where I stand
In this human land
Just a man
Destine for a short life span
I just want to hold another’s hand