Been Lied to Today and Feel Like My Heart Has Been Ripped Out...

Life is a struggle every day,
Always lost and always confused,
Not knowing where life leads to,
Just knowing that feeling and always being lied to,
You get some thing and you name it and love it,
Later to find out that you can't keep it,
It was given to you as a gift to make me feel better,
Been so down and depressed needing some thing to love,
Four days ago i was given a very cute and special puppy,
I named him Looper, it was a surprise gift to me,
Cause i had been looking for another dog,
Later to find out.... i had been lied to... again...
My grandparents decided to say i couldn't have the dog,
I cried and begged, i pleaded for them not to do this again,
Every time i get an animal they say i can keep,
I get close to it and they take it away,
It hurts me so bad it feels like i got stabbed in the heart,
This may just be pay back for the troubles i have caused,
They may be testing me again like always...
Just to see if i cut or do drugs,
That way they can ground me and forbid me from more things...
This may seem like a bit much but,
Animals are the key to my happiness and i got alot...
There was some thing about this dog that was just so great,