I Want to Talk So Bad...

I want to talk so bad,
And let the world know how much i hurt,
But im scared that if i open up i will be hurt worse,
Im so depressed, sad, lonely, lost and confused,
Not only from day to day but since i was young,
I have alot problems and i wont deny them no more,
Im a cutter, i drink and do drugs a bit too much,
I have a problem at listening and doing what i am told,
I have an eating dis-order called Bulimia,
I have Insomnia and i really don't like to sleep,
I have hardly no respect for authority figures,
There's only a few i respect and trust completely,
I am more sensitive then i say i am,
I think very negatively toward my self,
I have no trust for alot of adults and people, alot is in my family, and home,
See the thing is i see the world in a whole different view,
I see it as tragic every where i go, a world of un-happiness, and more hurt to come,
But i geuse you can call that life,
My only problem with life is, i don't see a reason why im alive,
Why god brought me into this world to just be hurt every day of my life,
Lied to and neglected and abused....
Always feeling like a reject, and a loser, and worthless,
I don't got place on this earth, no where i am welcomed,
Im a disgrace to so many and hated by alot of my family...