What Once Was

Life hasn't always been this hard,
I remember a life of ease
When I could simply walk around,
Always doing what I please...

Used to have a smile on my face,
Every day and every hour.
All before I lost my way ,
And those sunny days all turned so sour.

I want to find a reason to live,
But my will is missing power
A life I used to without fear,
But now all I seem to do is cower.

Taking a dose of my own medicine,
I sit down, and man the fuck up...
But that pill's so hard to swallow,
When all I love is now corrupt.

Just take one glance and see my eyes,
Looking forward unto the dawn,
Eyes that once belonged to a champion;
But now you can everything that's wrong

The will to fight, no longer there,
Brown irises will tell a tale of woe.
My spirits once soared like an eagle!
But now in a dark pit is where they go...

I don't know how to make this better
What has been broken might never mend,
Don't know if there's any going back,
Once my soul has been condemned

The end may be near
That has always been clear
But despite all my fears
I'm glad I'm still here...

©Copyright/ Alex Colón